Home Cooking! & My Life!!

Well today I started that giant task of taking down my Christmas Decorations;

It’s not an easy task either for me, my silly neck and back always have to throw “fits” and “spasms of pain” but slowly I am making headway, I’ve gotten the whole frontroom decor down now and packed away in my closets, the room is back to normal.

All that is left is the Giant 7 1/2 ft. Christmas tree and ornaments!

Now that’s a job, as it is so  time consuming to pack them up you know taking them down and putting them into those plastic ornament container’s which is a GodSend!!  I love those things; I bumped my tree today and knocked off one of the ornaments of course its one that shatters too when it hits the floor, why couldn’t it have been one that just “kinda bounces” UGH!

My doctor yesterday dug out more glass in my foot and here I go and bump the darn tree today and make a mess…

Tomorrow I will start that lovely task, my two cats will be sure to be there underfoot of course they are so nosy LOL!  I wish Santa would send me a camcorder of some kind I’d love to be able to fim the silly things my two furbabies do here;  Silly kitty’s!!

So goodbye Christmas decorations, I know we’ve still got a couple of winter months left even though our temperture here in Missouri a lot of us are in the 60’s++ today can you believe that?  But there is yet another cold front swooping down upon us for this evening;

Crazy weather, no wonder we all get sick even the animals are having a hard time this year;

Have you taken down your Christmas decorations yet??

Yesterday was my regularly scheduled visit with my Doctor, but he was sick, in fact he’s very sick, so they canceled the whole day of appointment’s, and even though the poor over worked man showed up today, he was so weak he sat in a big chair like a computer chair, he has his family there too that help out and work there anyway he is and was so weak that his kids had to practically help him with all simple tasks, some writing on the charts, handing him the phone  when other Doctors/patients called him it was so sad to see; 

Poor Man he should have been home in bed, he was very dizzy and his wife was so concerned that she was telling me they were thinking of taking him to the hospital but where was he??  There at the office trying to see patients like me so we could get our stupid monthly spend down met, now how many doctors do you know that would do this? 

I only know of one and that’s my doctor; Anyway the poor guy I told him how sore my foot was since he had dug out glass on it last month and sure enough he found more glass working its way out of my foot right under my little toe, you know in an area that supports all your weight, that thing has just hurt me in ways that I can’t even explain it, but he somehow managed to dig out more glass and I was grateful he did; 

If you’ve not been following my blog, ding dong neighbor’s friend last month came inside in a blunder and knocked down one of my crystal vases and of course with my concrete floor it just SHATTERED all over the place and you sweep and sweep and vacuum and yet there are still tiny shards of glass on the floor so I think I’ve stepped on all that was left I sure hope thats the end of it, this weekend I plan on taking down the Christmas decorations and the big old tree so then I’ll really be able to sweep up good;

I can’t be stepping on any more glass thats for sure, its painful and “risky” as I am diabetic and crap like that I just don’t need and its been a full month of me trying to get that sore area on my foot healed, so lets hope it heals up good this time around; 

Stupid Ninny that was in here and broke it of course has avoided me like the plague and for sure hasn’t come knocking on my door for anything and I’ve not received one dime from her either for breaking my beautiful cyrstal vase…GGRRR!

You’d be surprised at how painful glass in your foot can be even after a month;

so I hope that’s the end of it!!

I know when I say that dealing with the “frigid weather” this time of year is just Brutal on one’s body;

For mine its just been pure hell these past several days our temperture here in Missouri is nothing like some other states but its been bad enough.  Temperture this morning was a whole (1 degree) the wind chill was like (-14 below) 

Thankfully this morning the blasted wind had died down a lot so I guess we sorta are having a brief heat wave…ha!  It does not feel that way trust me; 

For me the biggest problem are my neck and back injuries that I got from that blasted car accident back in 1996 , the left side of my neck feels like there is a big old two by four ( big board) sticking out of my neck, I kid you not; 

My jawbone on the left side has the worst TMJ there that whole bone structure on my face just hurts, it hurts so badly I am reduced to eating soft foods, nothing hard or piercing you know like fried Chicken or something of that nature; 

If this worsens and it has in the past when the weather is just frigid for days on end, My jaw will lock up, if you’ve never had this experience let me explain it to you, your jaw bone does just that, it locks up to where you can barely open your mouth to speak, to eat to drink , a couple of years ago maybe two years it was so bad I could barely get a straw into my mouth to eat, that was my way of eating via a straw I was living on Milk shakes, juices, yogurt, it was horrible and the pain is just nothing like you’d expect; 

Have you ever had a really painful experience at the dentist, ok so imagine that plus more pain than you can just bare?  That’s how bad this is;  I swear I’d rather have surgery and be awake; No, I’m not exaggerating in the least this sort of pain just makes you have to take your strongest pain meds, and knock yourself out and forget the world around you;  I fear I am headed in this direction right now I’ve got a really bad sinusitis infection which I have meds for this too, my stupid body cannot fight off “anything” my  immune  system is just basically nothing so with all of this blasted frigid air we’ve had day after day after day and the pain I’ve been experiencing in my jaw is telling me that it is going to lock up on me, and I just pray to God that does not happen, I don’t need this;  If you suffer with this type of pain or others please feel free to stop by and leave comments down below I know I am not the only one who suffers like this in my neck, my jaw…I can only wish for Spring to arrive but that’s a long long ways off now…(sigh)!

Happy holidays to you!!   If I was out in some of that horrible weather like the ones shown on tv  in those big car pile ups they had I’d just have to go to the hospital,  My jaw and my neck and back injuries would just tear me up to be out in the weather that long;

I feel badly for them and I feel badly for the others that have really really horrible terrible cold weather and tons of snow;  How do you survive there??

Nothing of great interest at all for me today;  Just the usual stuff of running errands before the weather turns bad tonight as the temperature drops, You’ve heard of “blue Monday’s” but today is a blue Tuesday for me, crazy cold rainy weather is murder on one’s sinus’s   just murder!!  

I’ve spent a good part of my day online trying to earn some money and I’m always searching for ways to earn money here from home, its just nothing more than a headache to be honest, some times I have the “energy” to try and better myself at writing, and other times I just don’t care. 

Today is one of those days I just don’t care LOL!   

I don’t care about anything else as the pain is just too much for me to bear today. 

I wish I could be more creative like several of my friends, maybe if I were not so heavily medicated each day maybe my old brain would function better and I could do more, but on these cold, windy dreary days like today I am worse than a “slug”… 

I just cannot function!! That is the worst feeling in the world you know? 

You have all these thoughts and ideas bouncing around in your head, you sit down to try to put it all on the computer or on paper and you’ve done nothing more than draw a big fat blank.!

Maybe tomorrow will be better but I doubt it! 

Hope your day is going better than mine…

I don’t know about anyone else that has severe pain 24/7 and deals with it daily but for me taking a really really scalding how shower is the quickest way( for me) to get some pain relief and loosen up my aching joints.

But I seriously think the shower I just took was a tad bit too hot maybe this time, I’ve been out of the shower now oh at least 20+minutes wrapping pain patches on my feet and ankles and I should be cooled down by now but I’m not, ” a little dizzy too”, so I guess I either took too hot of a shower , or my stupid blood sugar just zapped itself out of my system one or the other I just don’t quite feel right you know? 

Oh well I just hurt so badly and have been busy today doing things here in my place and My Dad and I took Christmas wreaths out to my Mom’s and brothers graves and we had to re do the flowers I had taken days ago we’ve had so much stinkin wind it tore them up pretty badly and he went by there the other day and said they had blown out which of course he picked them up;

But I like my flowers arranged a certain way and we had to buy new styrofoam pieces to hold the flowers, that wind was blowing like crazy again today too, I hate wind this time of year, I really do;  So anyway this body of mine just was hurting really really badly and I took my other hot shower:  I do admit I take really really hot ones but most of the time I can stand it and have no dizziness, I guess I am just tired and run down today;  Oh well! what can you do right?  Just be careful now if you suffer with the same thing ok?  (G)! 

I hope these silly pain patches kick in soon too I swear it feels like someone is chopping my ankles off of the bone, no joke its a horrible type of pain;

I use the Lidoderm pain patches My doctor perscribes for me, ( 3 boxes) which is 90 of them each month, thank the lord I don’t have to pay full price for them, I’d never be able to afford them, full price would be over $600.00 No shit!  Who has that kind of money?  Not me, so thankfully Medicare pays it each month as I really use them all over me;  Love them!  They use them too on a lot of Cancer patients according to my doctor. 

That’s all I know for today;

Be sure to check out my cake recipe below ok?

It’s good!

I just cannot begin to tell you of the pain that I have in this miserable body of mine;  I deal with so much of it 24/7 as it is, but this week since I fell down on my knees due to stinkin black ice and wrenching my shoulder up against the car I just cannot begin to describe it.

Today was visit number 2 with my chiropractor and my next project is going to be finding a picture of this blasted contraption he uses on me, it is the most painful thing I have ever in my life experienced, except for the trigger point injections I used to get in my neck, now that one does out rank this medieval torture treatment this guy, aka Doctor uses but I swear to God I am going to break his fingers, his hand or something and I like this young man but when I tell him that is enough, meaning I’ve had enough pain I cannot take any more, then I mean for him to STOP! 

STOP still means stop in my mind right?  Good Lord!  I had to grab a hold of his hand yet again today, and tell him I HAVE HAD ENOUGH and I need you to stop before I hurt you!  I am dead serious too!!  If he keeps pushing that damn thing down onto my ribs ( his treatment) of them on the front side of me I literally am going to lose my tiny mind and I will start screaming at the top of my lungs yelling and cussing him out;  I don’t want to hurt him but he is pushing it pain wise!

This hideous thing ( gadget) he uses is just horrible and on a woman’s breast plate ( our ribs) this is a tender side/area on a woman even if she had gotten hurt for the very first time, on your breastplate all of those ribs are just going to be very very tender, and this guy uses this shot like/medal contraption and it pounds into your bones again ( shot like) BAM!  PRESSURE, BAM!  PRESSURE!  It’s horrible ! 

Just Horrible!! I swear to God I’d rather have surgery and be wide awake, have a broken bone be wide awake while they set it, nothing I’ve ever in my 47 years is as bad as this damn gadget he uses, and his wife tells me oh all the doctors use them these days.. that is not true he is only one of 4 that I see and he is the only one that has ever, ever used it!  I go to him because he is right here in town and I don’t have to drive 40++ miles or wait to get in for HOURS at my regular doctor who does NOT use this type of treatment!!  So I go to this young man as he is close by, and handy but holy hell I don’t want to go to jail either because I flip a nut and might hurt him, so I’ve got some serious thinking to do here;  Shall I continue seeing him??  Risk not hurting him??  I just don’t know its quite a dilemma for me;     

Once I find a photo of this damn gadget you’ll see what I mean, by tomorrow I’ll have yet again several more damn bruises on me because of him pounding that damn thing up against my poor ribs that are already so tender.   GEEEEZZ!